Ripe Bananas Made Me Cry Today

Yes, you read that correctly.....ripe bananas made me cry today.

That’s a weird statement, I know. But when I saw them sitting on the counter, my first thought was, “I’ll save those for Chiloh to make banana bread.” Then it hit me. She won’t be here.

We are leaving today to take her to college. Move-in day is tomorrow.

She’s my baby. The youngest. The one who has tagged along to everything her entire life. She’s been the cheerleader for her siblings, supporting them in their sports and adventures, always along for the ride.

And now—it’s her turn. We’re packing up and taking her to start her own life.

I’m so happy for her. Truly, I am. I’m excited for her to go have the time of her life, to make new friends, to step into all that God has for her. But if I’m honest, I’m sad too. Sad that my baby won’t be here with me.

Yes, she’s within driving distance. In all honesty, I could jump in the car and go see her for lunch. But it’s not the same.

This is the bittersweet part of motherhood that no one can really prepare you for. It’s knowing you’ve done your job well enough to launch them into their next season… and at the same time, realizing your everyday life will never quite look the same again.

I know this feeling will pass. But right now? It hurts.

And that’s okay. Because loving big means feeling deeply. And this momma heart is feeling it all.